@Ratcaller @nightsavior I mean its still there but its manageable, at least for now!
Also I guess you're right. I barely think about it anymore, I'll just go with the flow the best way I can and I react spontaneously depending on their actions and first impressions I get. The way they speak, body language, eye contact, tone of their voice, if they are actually paying attention, if they do something odd, everything and THEN I'll adjust myself to the situation and see what can I do with that individual.
Also, why do you feel exhausted? Shouldnt talking to the right people actually make you more lively and chipper?
Ratcaller
Hey there! I mean I used to be heavy introvert and I still am. But after years and years of being more or less forced to deal with people, Ive started to really enjoy random social interactions. Once I got the heavy anxiety off of me it became more of a skill I wanted to explore and eventually I got reasonably good at it. Im still introvert in nature and prefer time spent alone though. However, dealing with people taught me many, many things, good and bad, and I cant imagine running my brain engine without all the shit Ive learned :3
nightsavior
Ah,there are times I can enjoy interacting with people. But even if it's a good encounter I tend to feel exhausted afterwards. Once in awhile there's an exception to that rule but it is rare. I have been charming in certain situations but that's more of an irregularity. lol. There are a lot of cute females that work at my grocery store and to my credit I make eye contact and hold a conversation. Albeit I tend to talk about the most inoffensive boring crap imaginable! I suppose the trick to all of it is "letting people in",even if you're kind of afraid they might see something they don't immediately like or understand. Still it's probably better being the weird interesting guy than the milquetoast bland guy! Thanks for sharing your story,Ratcaller! I'm glad you were able to eventually kick your heavy anxiety to the curb!