"Have the cravings,wish I did not.....

I'd be more at peace without that train of thought.....

Biological imperative corrupted with fetish and vice.....

What was once simple complicated beyond sound advice....

Euphoria followed by awkward emptiness with each release....

Even growing older does not cause the yearnings to cease....

Want to love,but do not know how........

Each attempted relationship another broken vow......

Me,I'm adrift......

Just.another soul lost in the rift...........

Animal yet "not" an animal..........

Wanting meaning but finding nothing substantial......

Beaten down and tired of the game......

Want to retire with no further false hopes nor any shame.........

Deeper feelings replaced by a numb void.....

Of a goal or set direction I am devoid......"